THE WEEK THAT WAS

Today i am supposed to be going to a blogging event, but alas I cannot make it as I have a doctors appointment I need to attend with my mother. The weather is going to be extremely hot here today so thank goodness for air conditioning and a pool. 

A L O N E

Yikes! If I really think about and focus, which I do not. I am  a l o n e.  Do not get me wrong I have my daughters friends and family. But I have no partner. No one to cuddle up to. No one to have deep conversations with. 

Taking the plunge, meeting someone new, scares the hell out of me and excites me all at the same time. but to get started is the hardest part. I am scared. Tears rolling down my cheeks. I have been on an emotional roller coaster as the realisation of finding someone new. Do I really want to take that step, yes and no....... more no. S c a r e d! That is me. 

How does one go about meeting that special someone in her mid 40's? I know loads of people do. I am sitting here staring out the window wondering and thinking what is next for me in this big wide world. My little children's boutique is up and running and I have had my first order YAY!! My daughters are thriving and doing well in their lives......looking forward to the holidays to spend time relaxing and going out with friends.

I am on a new path with an adventure ahead. My partner of 20+ years has moved on and we are still good friends and I am so happy that I took the right attitude and chose to be that way. Our relationship had loads of up and downs and in the end it was better that we separated and he moved out so the girls could continue on living life as they always have....just without there father under the same roof.

I feel better that I have shared my thoughts, with you, my readers. A bit scared to press publish....but here goes..........

Thank you for listening. Any words of encouragement or advice are open in the comments.

Vicki xo

do not let ANXIETY TAKE OVER

Ever since I found out at the end of last week that I had parent teacher interviews for my daughter who is in Year 12. I have been anxious and I was trying to think of every possible way I could get out of it. As I do not drive I was thinking of how getting a bus to the local shopping area near my daughters school, in the too much effort basket, I was also feeling slack at the same time as I really wanted to go and I know my daughter wanted me too as well. In the early hours of yesterday morning I woke up trying to think of ways to back out of going. I even thought of faking a migraine, but as the day progressed and I got my head around that I have to do this and that I can do this. I want to do this for my daughter and you know what I committed and I did it.

I left early so I could peruse the shops but as it is a small shopping centre their is not really much that I wanted to purchase. So I bought the latest Prevention magazine walked to Gloria Jeans and sat for a good hour reading waiting for my daughter to meet me. Then she purchased an iced chocolate and a ham and cheese roll and we walked around 15 minutes to school. 

You know the best part was that I got to hear what the teachers thought of my daughter and how we could be proactive with the upcoming HSC - 20 weeks to be precise! I was impressed at how they are so helpful at working with my daughter to bring out her best. I also got to catch up with some mother's I have not seen since she was in primary school.....it was like a little mum reunion.

So I say go forth and get over your anxieties and prosper in life and attitude.